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首发偶发空缺 (临时空缺)-第16部分

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e left to run。 Worth it。 Could swing the whole thing; putting one of our side in; instead of Fairbrother。’

Howard drummed his thick fingers against the bowl of his wine glass; looking at his son across the table。 Both Shirley and Maureen were watching Miles too; and Miles; Samantha thought; was looking back at his father like a big fat Labrador; quivering in expectation of a treat。

A beat later than she would have done if she had been sober; Samantha realized what this was all about; and why a strangely celebratory air hung over the table。 Her intoxication had been liberating; but all of a sudden it was restrictive; for she was not sure that her tongue would be wholly biddable after more than a bottle of wine and a long stretch of silence。 She therefore thought the words; rather than speaking them aloud。

You’d better bloody well tell them you’ll need to discuss it with me first; Miles。

VII
Tessa Wall had not meant to stay long at Mary’s – she was never fortable about leaving her husband and Fats alone in the house together – but somehow her visit had stretched to a couple of hours。 The Fairbrothers’ house was overflowing with camp beds and sleeping bags; their extended family had closed in around the gaping vacuum left by death; but no amount of noise and activity could mask the chasm into which Barry had vanished。

Alone with her thoughts for the first time since their friend had died; Tessa retraced her steps down Church Row in the darkness; her feet aching; her cardigan inadequate protection against the cold。 The only noise was the clicking of the wooden beads around her neck; and the dim sounds of television sets in the houses she was passing。

Quite suddenly; Tessa thought: I wonder whether Barry knew。

It had never occurred to her before that her husband might have told Barry the great secret of her life; the rotten thing that lay buried at the heart of her marriage。 She and Colin never even discussed it (though a whiff of it tainted many a conversation; particularly lately … )。

Tonight; though; Tessa had thought she caught half a glance from Mary; at the mention of Fats … 

You’re exhausted; and you’re imagining things; Tessa told herself firmly。 Colin’s habits of secrecy were so strong; so deeply entrenched; that he would never have told; not even Barry; whom he idolized。 Tessa hated to think that Barry might have known … that his kindness towards Colin had been actuated by pity for what she; Tessa; had done … 

When she entered the sitting room; she found her husband sitting in front of the television; wearing his glasses; the news on in the background。 He had a sheaf of printed papers in his lap and a pen in his hand。 To Tessa’s relief; there was no sign of Fats。

‘How is she?’ Colin asked。

‘Well; you know … not great;’ said Tessa。 She sank into one of the old armchairs with a little moan of relief; and pulled off her worn…down shoes。 ‘But Barry’s brother’s being marvellous。’

‘In what way?’

‘Well … you know … helping。’

She closed her eyes and massaged the bridge of her nose and her eyelids with her thumb and forefinger。

‘I always thought he seemed a bit unreliable;’ said Colin’s voice。

‘Really?’ said Tessa; from the depths of her voluntary darkness。

‘Yes。 Remember when he said he’d e and referee for that game against Paxton High? And he cancelled with about half an hour’s notice and Bateman had to do it instead?’

Tessa fought down an impulse to snap。 Colin had a habit of making sweeping judgements based on first impressions; on single actions。 He never seemed to grasp the immense mutability of human nature; nor to appreciate that behind every nondescript face lay a wild and unique hinterland like his own。

‘Well; he’s being lovely with the kids;’ said Tessa carefully。 ‘I’ve got to go to bed。’
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She did not move; but sat concentrating on the separate aches in different parts of her body: in her feet; her lower back; her shoulders。

‘Tess; I’ve been thinking。’

‘Hmm?’

Glasses shrank Colin’s eyes to mole…like proportions; so that the high; balding knobbly forehead seemed even more pronounced。

‘Everything Barry was trying to do on the Parish Council。 Everything he was fighting for。 The Fields。 The addiction clinic。 I’ve been thinking about it all day。’ He drew a deep inward breath。 ‘I’ve pretty much decided that I’m going to take over for him。’

Misgivings crashed over Tessa; pinning her to her chair; rendering her momentarily speechless。 She struggled to keep her expression professionally neutral。

‘I’m sure it’s what Barry would have wanted;’ said Colin。 His strange excitement was tinged with defensiveness。

Never; said Tessa’s most honest self; never for a second would Barry have wanted you to do this。 He would have known you are the very last person who ought to do it。

‘Gosh;’ she said。 ‘Well。 I know Barry was very … but it would be a huge mitment; Colin。 And it’s not as though Parminder’s gone。 She’s still there; and she’ll still be trying to do everything Barry wanted。’

I should have phoned Parminder; thought Tessa as she said it; with a guilty bump in her stomach。 Oh; God; why didn’t I think to call Parminder?

‘But she’ll need support; she’ll never be able to stand up to them all on her own;’ said Colin。 ‘And I guarantee Howard Mollison will be lining up some puppet to replace Barry right now。 He’s probably already—’

‘Oh; Colin—’

‘I bet he has! You know what he’s like!’

The papers in Colin’s lap fell; disregarded; in a smooth white waterfall onto the floor。

‘I want to do this for Barry。 I’ll take over where he left off。 I’ll make sure everything he worked for doesn’t go up in smoke。 I know the arguments。 He always said he got opportunities he’d never have had otherwise; and look how much he gave back to the munity。 I’m definitely going to stand。 I’m going to look into what I’ve got to do; tomorrow。’

‘All right;’ said Tessa。 Years of experience had taught her that Colin ought not to be opposed in the first throes of his enthusiasm; or it would simply entrench him in his determination to proceed。 Those same years had taught Colin that Tessa often pretended to agree before raising objections。 These kinds of exchanges were always infused with their mutual; unexpressed remembrance of that long…buried secret。 Tessa felt that she owed him。 He felt that he was owed。

‘This is something I really want to do; Tessa。’

‘I understand that; Colin。’

She pulled herself out of the chair; wondering whether she would have the energy to get upstairs。

‘Are you ing to bed?’

‘In a minute。 I want to finish looking through these first。’

He was gathering up the printed sheets he had let fall; his reckless new project seemed to be giving him a feverish energy。

Tessa undressed slowly in their bedroom。 Gravity seemed to have bee more powerful; it was such an effort to lift her limbs; to force her recalcitrant zip to do as she wished。 She pulled on her dressing gown and went into the bathroom; where she could hear Fats moving around overhead。 She often felt lonely and drained these days; shuttling between her husband and son; who seemed to exist entirely independently; as alien to each other as landlord and lodger。

Tessa went to take off her wristwatch; then realized that she had mislaid it yesterday。 So tired … she kept losing things … and how could she have forgotten to call Parminder? Tearful; worried and tense; she shuffled off to bed。

Wednesday
I
Krystal Weedon had spent Monday and Tuesday nights on her friend Nikki’s bedroom floor after an especially bad fight with her mother。 This had started when Krystal arrived home from hanging out with her mates at the precinct and found Terri talking to Obbo on the doorstep。 Everyone in the Fields knew Obbo; with his bland puffy face and his gap…toothed grin; his bottle…bottom glasses and his filthy old leather jacket。

‘Jus’ keep ’em ’ere fer us; Ter; fer a coupla days? Few quid in it for yeh?’

‘Wha’s she keepin’?’ Krystal had demanded。 Robbie scrambled out from between Terri’s legs to cling tightly to Krystal’s knees。 Robbie did not like men ing to the house。 He had good reason。

‘Nuthin’。 pu’ers。’

‘Don’;’ Krystal had said to Terri。

She did not want her mother to have spare cash。 She would not have put it past Obbo to cut out the middle step and pay her for the favour with a bag of smack。

‘Don’ take ’em。’

But Terri had said yes。 All Krystal’s life; her mother had said yes to everything and everyone: agreeing; accepting; forever acquiescing: yeah; all righ’; go on then; ’ere yeh go; no problem。

Krystal had gone to hang out at the swings under a darkening sky with her friends。 She felt strained and irritable。 She could not seem to grasp the fact of Mr Fairbrother’s death; but kept experiencing punches to the stomach that made her want to lash out at somebody。 She was also unsettled and guilty about having stolen Tessa Wall’s watch。 But why had the silly bitch put it there in front of Krystal and closed her eyes? What did she expect?

Being with the others did not help。 Jemma kept needling her about Fats Wall; finally Krystal exploded and lunged at her; Nikki and Leanne had to hold Krystal back。 So Krystal stormed home; to find that Obbo’s puters had arrived。 Robbie was trying to climb the stacked boxes in the front room; while Terri sat there in dazed oblivion; her works lying out on the floor。 As Krystal had feared; Obbo had paid Terri with a bag of heroin。

‘You stupid fuckin’ junkie bitch; they’ll kick yer ou’ the fuckin’ clinic again!’

But heroin took Krystal’s mother where she was beyond reach。 Though she responded by calling Krystal a little bitch and a whore; it was with vacant detachment。 Krystal slapped Terri across the face。 Terri told her to fuck off and die。

‘You fuckin’ look after him fer a fuckin’ change then; you useless fuckin’ smackhead cow!’ Krystal screamed。 Robbie ran howling up the hall after her; but she slammed the front door on him。

Krystal liked Nikki’s house better than any other。 It was not as tidy as her Nana Cath’s; but it was friendlier; fortingly loud and busy。 Nikki had two brothers and a sister; so Krystal slept on a folded…up duvet between the sisters’ beds。 The walls were covered with pictures cut out of magazines; arranged as a collage of desirable boys and beautiful girls。 It had never occurred to Krystal to embellish her own bedroom walls。

But guilt was clawing at her insides; she kept remembering Robbie’s terrified face as she slammed the door on him; so on Wednesday morning she came home。 In any case; Nikki’s family was not keen on her staying more than two nights in a row。 Nikki had once told her; with characteristic forthrightness; that it was all right with her mum if it didn’t happen too often; but that Krystal was to stop using them as a hostel; and especially to stop turning up past midnight。

Terri seemed as glad as she ever was to see Krystal back。 She talked about the new social worker’s visit; and Krystal wondered nervously what the stranger had thought of the house; which lately had sunk even further below its usual filthy tidemark。 Krystal was es
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